I suppose I should get on to this whole blogging thing again and spill my guts and events to the general public of the internet. I have decided officially today that I am going to extricate myself from society in order to focus on more important things in my life, mainly school. In order to get a 3.6 GPA I have to get mostly A's all the way until I graduate. I must overcome my slothfulness and step out into the "real world." Move away from the every weekend (or weekday) party, and change that to a monthly or bimonthly. Hopefully I will get a job on campus working for a professor or graduate student. Next summer I am prospectively going to intern in Tampa for an SLP and probably live at home for that time in order to save money and work on graduate thesis/take online classes to raise my GPA. All these numbers will be trivial in a few years, but I am taking the responsibility of keeping up with them now, because for the past two years I have done the bare minimum, and still somehow pulled off mostly B's. I figure actually putting real effort into it I could easily get A's. After I graduate I will either enter a program called Teachers for America or go to graduate school in Massachusetts, New York, California, Florida or Colorado. I still have about a year and a half to decide.
Life as I know it is moving at an alarming rate. Not necessarily fast, but the idea that I am so close to pure adulthood is jarring. Is there a moment when someone officially becomes an adult? I mean technically I am an adult by societal standards, but I truly am terrified of that idea for multiple reasons: being completely broke, living off student loans, eating cereal for every meal of the day, drinking ungodly amounts of alcohol illegally most nights, sleeping until 11, waking up dazed, watching films, going to the park, and going to school. That really does not seem very adult-like to me. In fact, I have never felt so small and derisory in all of my short existence.
On a positive note, in case you are not informed I have a wonderful dog named Harvey to keep me company on these long rainy days that mother nature has been plaguing Florida with. Here is a lovely picture of him. I got him from the shelter about 5 months back, I believe he is a white german shepherd, and he may have some husky in him.
I spend most of my free time at the dog park in winter park during the day, which is a pretty awesome place (if you like dogs, of course).
Once I get some money I am getting some more canvas and paints. I'm taking my art in a new direction that I think may possibly be successful and more likable. When I am done I will put some photos up. I have been writing some poetry as well, but nothing notable that I would feel comfortable posting.
But as for now, I'm going to hope for some sunshine. Both metaphorically and literally.
Stay dry, friends!
much love,
Alexis Bea
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